Waiting

AHHHHH half of the year is over!!!! Over this year, the rollercoaster hasn’t stopped spinning. Living in full swing, although my head feels quite like this picture right now. Mental health is not a walker in the park. Anxiety hyphenates everything we can’t even solve… everyone always talks about strength and their greatest virtues, today I’m here to say my biggest weakness is my impatience. Being a perfectionist triggers my sensitivity. Imposter syndrome is no joke. People sit every day in the career of their lives and think they are unqualified. We fight constantly to feel good enough.

While waiting for my interviews to align and seeking my spot. I find myself overthinking my potential. All that you are destined to do is for YOU. change is so hard. We are used to everything we know. As much as you want to run away say no to every little thing that has not been meticulously planned out to the T… don’t. Panic every minute of it. Ask a thousand questions, but don’t count yourself out because of fear. It’s normal, to be scared (even the most confident person in the room is) people are rooting for you! Thankful to those that let me repeat myself without judgment and treat me gently. Go and be unapologetically who you are meant to be.

Know that no other person can play your role. You can do anything, you deserve the things you’ve fought for. Have peace in knowing, you are an influence everywhere you go whether you realize it or not. It’s okay not to believe in yourself, let’s be honest we never do, lean on your people!!! Choose those who choose you. Reciprocate and water you. Flourish beyond your mind. Be brave. Fly!! Dance, yell, cry, write, talk, do whatever sets you free. Never feel heavy or trapped in your mind. Express yourself to the max. Those that love you never mind, those who mind do not matter. Be in all essence. Wait for everything that brings you peace. Never settle!!

With love and gratitude! ❤

Trust

It’s the hardest thing to earn but the quickest thing to lose.

Throughout my life, I’ve had the constant struggle of whether I believe people or not, is it genuine? How do you know? Why do you just trust? Maybe from a perspective of a disabled girl, it was just always more complicated. Now I see it more and more in my career field when I meet a new student or a deaf person we start talking and they just stare. Over analyzing if they should respond or not. Always on defense, because it was easier than giving in. Are we meant to just trust automatically? As humans we wake up, meet strangers, and become friends. It’s the cycle of life. I trust a total of like 3 people and the rest is always a pending process. As people pleasers we tend to give without limits and people just take.

Learning every day that it’s okay to fight for the things we deserve and want. We don’t always have to be in fight or flight. One of my favorite people recently told me “You can’t be afraid of trusting people just like how you can’t be afraid to live.” Being on the defense of protecting yourself is easier but allowing vulnerability sets you free. Express yourself, be you. Those who matter will always care and water you because it’s you and those that don’t see you for you don’t matter.

In the last few weeks, I’ve been able to give value and space to myself and in all honesty embrace my sensitivity. being hyped and energetic is the best version of me, I am thankful for the individuals that let me be that person. A gentle reminder, life is a moment. Live it. Feel it. Be it. Everything on this earth is a privilege! Don’t let anyone make you feel small just because they are not willing to give their full potential. Shine bright today and always!

Calmness

The storm is heavy, but when the sun shines it shines. Took a minute to find my thoughts… it’s quite hard to start new things and find balance and patience within you to know that you are capable to fight. Knowing that every day is its rollercoaster and you never know what the next 24 hours will look like is such an adrenaline boost and a gift to realize that everything is a privilege!

Loss my voice for four days & if you know me at all you know I die if I can’t talk. But in the mix of it all, saw my favorite cousin, went to work (perks of knowing sign language) observed a lot, & felt at peace. made me see that presence matters over everything!! Feeling seen and valued by those that love you is such a feeling. Take advantage to express your emotions, thoughts, and feelings. If it’s important to you blow it up & do not let anyone water you down. There’s always serenity in the middle of the chaos. YELL at the top of your lungs every day. Repeat yourself. Laugh & cry. Be you!

Embrace who you are, I am rooting for you!

Connection

Just a girl who talks a little too much & is obsessed with planes

Yoooo, who read the fine print of the Contract of Life because it is kinda crazy out here?! However, I come bearing some relief… you have survived the first 100 days of the year!!! I have seen things change, leave, and stay. In the last one hundred days I’ve noticed a lot too, I have always been the one to observe. Hold on to things deeply for the sake of connection. Oh, but the freedom you feel when you release the one-sided bonds. I’m here to tell you that you can be you, and you will never push away the people that genuinely value you for YOU.

Sit & reflect. Observe. Things come with patience and everything will self-align when you are ready to receive it. In the meantime enjoy the space, the rain, jump, yell, laugh, love, burst the voice inside of you, and EXPRESS. If someone else cannot handle it then that is not someone you don’t need in your orbit. Keep yourself afloat. There are millions of things to do and see. We have yet to experience the best things in life. Find your people! They will water you. Anything that feels suppressing is not genuine. The ones that love you want to see you flourish and prosper.

BE. SET THE WORLD UPSIDE DOWN. do not settle, embrace who you are. Love loudly and unapologetically. Reciprocate your genuine connections and be happy. I’m rooting for you always and I hope you all reach the goals you desire so much.

-much love and gratitude!

Stumble

YOU are alive and thriving!!! When you feel your weakest lean on your people. Speak with your heart and seek the answers to the questions you have. The last week has shown me the importance of listening to your body and understanding that we are not superhuman. Stumbling is part of growing, not feeling like yourself is so exhausting emotionally. Here’s your sign to do something that makes you smile at least once a day! Love your people loudly because life is too short to act nonchalant.

Create healthy connections, so that you don’t walk the earth feeling anxious. Find the people that give you serotonin!! There is beauty in vulnerability and as a long-living person that feels overwhelming every time I move. Some people skyrocket just by experiencing your presence! Feel, jump, and express. You will be heard by those that truly care for you even when you are silent.

Turn the world upside down with your energy. You were meant to flourish not water yourself down. As always, breathe deep and keep going. When you feel stuck know that at least one person is rooting for you always!

Engraved

As we grow in the transitions of life. We idealized that if it is not perfect it is not enough… at least from my point of view, it’s one of my constant struggles. More times than not people try to cover up the cracks and embellish the scars. Oh, but listen here it is the physical sign of going through hardships and being able to stand strong. It is so engraved in our brains that we need to fit certain criteria to be worthy and that is just a lie. You are you because you were created as such to fulfill a purpose. Recently, I have discovered that the saying “things happen for a reason” is indeed true because nothing happens by coincidence. Embrace all you are, emotions, quirkiness, and don’t diminish yourself.

When you find your true people… your personality is a highlight to someone else!! A piece of you is always engraved in those that truly see you for who you are. Stay yourself. Be bubbly! Not everyone is meant to be everlasting, but you will always have yourself. Set boundaries. Love loudly and express gratitude for everything that matters to you. Life is too short to act like you do not care.

Scars and all, we all play a part in someone else’s story! Keep it pushing, you’ve made it through every single day you thought you could not. Stay hyped. As always, I’m rooting for you!

Essence

People always say just be yourself and you will be fine. Just love yourself, forgive, move on, etc… what does that mean?! How do you do that? First of all, there is no simple answer. Everything we feel (do) is part of who we are. It is how we develop personality, character, and boundaries. Every experience you go through creates the essence of your life. Comparison is a thief of joy… never understood what that truly meant until recently. NO TWO THINGS ARE IDENTICAL!! not people, objects, not even days. Everything on earth stands in its form.

As a perfectionist myself, I feel like everything is a time frame. As if there was a timer on life. News flash, there is not. Stop running, breathe, and look a the sky for an extra second longer you might see something different today. You are not in a race, everything comes in due time. Learning patience is extremely difficult, but I guarantee nothing is ever early or late, we are all just impatient and hate waiting for things, but the beauty comes from learning to observe the things before that.

Stand tall, and know that your presence will never be repeated in someone else! Let your personality shine, Be loud, talk at 100mi per hour, and repeat yourself 7x a day. Be dramatic because simple is boring. Feel all you feel with everything you are. The ones that genuinely love you will always see you. Do not let anyone make you feel like it is so “heavy” to be YOU. As always, I am rooting for you! Go forth and fly!!

Reset

Most of us probably survived the worst yet most rewarding year of our lives! Guess what, you have a new set of pages to write the most incredible story yet. Restart. Clear your mind and your heart. Seek everything you desire the best way you can. Never discredit your progress. Manifest it, write it down, for the universe will self-align to provide it for you. Recently, I’ve struggled with accepting the things I deserve and always thinking I have to “earn” them. We are deserving of all things because we fight for them. We exist. You. Are always capable of so much.

This year, I ask for calmness! I’m so used to stress. Always doing something and during the season of post-graduation and job searching I’ve had to practice patience and understanding that you do not always have to be “moving” to make progress! Be content as you are. Take a break, and reset. Align your goals, dreams, and aspirations. Stay true to yourself. Always! Make sure you prioritize your mental health, and your people, allow space for the new things to come.

May this year bring you all of the things you have always wanted. Wishing all of you inner peace, happiness, health, and growth. Be weird, and be extra bubbly for anything that is meant to stay will stay. You are seen. Strong and courageous. Let me tell you this, no two people are the same so stop comparing yourself and go be phenomenal. As always I’m rooting for you all!!!

To my inner child:

At 8 years old, I decided I wanted to learn sign language… I wanted to be an interpreter! Didn’t know how, when, or where. All my life I wanted inclusion. Power. Visibility to myself, always thought I need to be “walking” to have the things I pick up on the daily. Against all odds, the times I cried myself to sleep. The days I hated my physical appearance and everything else under the sun. I knew I’d die trying to earn the privilege to be who I wanted to be. I’d be influential to those who need it most. Turns out I became a Deaf Education Teacher!!!

Daniela, you are not the handicapped girl in the back of the class babe, you are the leader now. Through days of pain and tears, smiles and laughs. You got the career. The first in your family with a Bachelors degree. Thank you for never choosing the easiest way out. For not giving out to the “can’t” I love you for everything you were and will become.

No more labels… learned as years went by that I closed myself off because I was scared but little did I know everyone is flawed. We all are exactly who we are meant to be. Thank you for trying! For perseverance, for your stubbornness hahaha.

To anyone out there, live YOUR life. Be happy. Do it your way. For you. The world can accommodate. You fit. You matter. Much love. Go forth and conquer. Never give up!!! ❤️

Bubble

Life is like bubbles… Each day or given moment can only be seen once then it vanishes. Here lately, I’ve been shown that good things do happen. No matter how ordinary it is that I may feel. Everything you have earned is because you have worked for it. So yes make a big deal out of everything because this is your “bubble” so do not let anyone bust it just because they do not understand you!!

Changes will happen for hardly anything is linear. Go forth and conquer. Travel the road ahead for you have no clue what is waiting for you. Be humble, gracious, and patient in knowing that you will never go where you are not meant to be. Live and learn. Laugh and love. Sing and dance. Be loud like me hahaha. I’ll let you know something half of us are winging each day too no one has a clue what’s going on!

Know that at least one person out here is rooting for you! Be your hype. No dream is too small because the sky is limitless!